Heartless

today when i was at work .. i was listening to this song sang by Kris Allen .. he's the american idol 09 winner .. and he was singing this song called "Heartless" original cover by Kanye West .. he totally changed the whole song .. and it was amazing .. but i didn't know the meaning of the song till now .. when i was checking out Youtube .. i was listening to the lyrics .. it really meant something to me .. it's like the situation i'm having with Karen now .. it's not to say that she's a bad person or what .. i think she's wonderful .. she's like an angel to me .. when i listen to the song .. it just reminds me of her .. and what has happen ..

i seriously don't understand why ppl can think that i'm a bad person .. am i? do i talk like a gangster? i might do at times .. but that is normally when i'm pissed off .. but normally i'm ok .. rite? i was just trying to defend for karen in her blog .. and then suddenly out of no where .. ppl say that i'm like a gangster .. i was like wtf?? what did i say to make me sound like a gangster? i just dont understand these ppls .. weird .. =_="

i seriously dunno what to do to get her out of my head .. she's blocked me out of her life .. and i can't do anything about that .. but that's life .. maybe one day she will let me back in? who knows? all i can do is pray for the best to happen ..

btw .. i realize that not everyone can be trusted .. i found out that there are snakes around me .. and i'm gonna get rid of them .. or at least tell them who's incharge and not to mess with me .. fuck u idiots .. thinking that u can out smart me? try again assholes .. sorry for the bad language .. but it sucks to know that ur own "friends" backstab u ..

i received an sms from my ex few days ago .. she said that she's coming down to mlk .. and that if i don't mind meeting her bf .. then we can meet .. but i don't think so i will meet them .. dun forget that this is the same guy who stole her away from me .. but i'm over that .. i just dont wanna see his face ..

tomorrow Ryan will be coming back .. yahoo .. at least i have something to do this weekend .. haha .. by the way .. this is the version of the song that i was talking about ..

The Fray - Heartless (Kanye West Cover)